9 Signs of Quiet BPD
Self criticism + shame
This one's tough. It's hard not to criticize ones self or feel shameful, especially when we feel we are always the "cause" or "reason. Instead, we need to try to give ourselves a break. Just breathe. We're human, not perfect.
People pleasing
This one I can't really associate with when it comes to my BPD. Personally I don't try to people please. I actually do the opposite and become the main aggressor in most situations.
Repressed anger
You feel that bubbling up from the inside don't you? Repressed anger can instantly start creeping back to you. Just because time has past doesn't mean we have handle the situation or acknowledged our feelings and what to do to change them.
Fear of abandonment
Are you afraid to lose your "FP"(FAVORITE PERSON)? your partner, best friend, closest sibling or support person in your life? We rely way too much on others staying and being consistent. Sometimes it's just too much expectation on one person. Also we need to focus on being able to manage on our own.
Emotional withdrawal
It's easy to just emotionally withdrawal all together in difficult positions and situations especially when coping with BPD. I often "shut down" and "shut out". I push people away and there's from all emotions instead of facing them head on.
Extreme mood swings
Welp! I think most of us can relate. One second we're singing and dancing, five minutes later I'm hitting myself in the head and screaming in rage. Then I'm rapping, crying, and the cycle continues. My emotions change quickly and we can't always point to a solid and reasonable reason or trigger.
Internalized pain
This is horrible for us but I know I can't help but do it. It's a toxic coping mechanism but it's also natural. I often regress, emotionally and physically. We internalize our pain with anxiety and depression..we even begin to feel physical symptoms like stomach aches and headaches. This is due to the body's stress response being triggered.
Masking feelings
We attempt to mask our feelings for many reasons, not limited to; guilt/shame, frustration or sadness about what we're feeling. We mask our true feelings in attempts to simply blend in, not have to explain, or just all around avoid coping with those emotions.
Can you relate to any of these symptoms/habits of quiet BPD?
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